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*listening to here with me :- dido

i cant help but stare constantly at this blank page.... typing and deleting my entries ave becume more routined...... i feel that life cldnt struck u as more ambivalent and baffling eh.... i feel like i shld jz raise my hands up high and tell them ive lost, im surrendring, i cant do this animore, and its too hard... i jz need to break a fall...and get myself away from the cliche of life that takes on day to day....go away rain, go away and let the sunshine come in to stay...... ironically i luv the ripples the rain makes in a puddle, sheeze whadahell am i rambling desember, hw is it someone so close yet can be so distinctly far from u... is it jz u... is it????shld it be jz u who jz let go......shld every instances and mistakes cums with a forgive and forget code..... lets forgive and forget and start afresh....but where do we start , how do we even begin what was started, the inflicted pain that ran too deep, hw can starting afresh eliminate all that happened..... hw can forgive and forget be so easy ... too simple to claim.....

admist the thick and thin and at times wen the thick peculiar times jz tend to stick in and u tink life ave no more purpose and u feel that the last ounce of happiness ave been ripped out, when u felt everyone had already left and that u never felt more alone den ever, and the countless moments and minutes that u thot u've just waited in vain..... the times u thot he already would walked out and give up....*sigh
hes been der all along desember even tru the sticky hard times or the many times i waited.....hes been there wen i turn he jz stood by me .... i miss u soo much dear