disintegrate

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her thoughts, her constant ramblings, her continous journey in life that takes on day to day and she keeps askin herself the same question:- has she done enuf, do they like her or is it just a front, is she too difficult, does she aggravate and pain those ard her, does she rambles perpetually, ignoring the obvious superficial issue thats staring her rite in her face, can she be better, is she fat, is she of the rite size, does she look good in this, can she be wher she wanna be eventually, can she be a good wife, daughter, sister and fren, is she there for those who are there for her, or do she forsake them in their time of nid, does she use them at her advantage, or she really prove she can be one who will stand by them, will she be able to make him happy, not aggravate any peace he sought in his heart, can she perform and live up to his expectation or has she exceeded the expectation he had set for her, is she a good person , who harbours no ill-feelin in her heart or is she sumone who bears too much grudge from her past and hold it against those who continously ignores her scream and cries, can she be better or being an icy cold bitch just suit her better, is she goin to be in a constant battle, unaware of the person tat she is and then conforming to what they ard her expect to be ...but wen she does decide to do sumtin for herself , sumtin deserving of herself, its apparent tat its nt the best choice , in the end she hurts those she luv to dearly to her heart, they are hurt and they left her to ponder on her own thoughts on her own actions, but then if shes an individual hasnt she has the rite to perform wat is best and most right for her.....shes not perfect, she still seek for an individuality that is beyond her...she still seeks this constant lingering of anoymous assuarance..... she needs him to tell her its okay, shes okay, its goin to be alrite...it will be alrite in the end