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its peculiar at times, desember, hw devotion and passion jz eludes us, that we fail to comprehend the queerness wen emptiness fills every space that stands inside....... do u miss the good times , or were they merely infatuation that takes on the moment ... and they were meant to last onli fr that time ....bt werent we foolish, werent we naive?? this uncoforming latatitude of space ... its so suffocating.........that u dun remember the werds or promises of comfort no more......they were jz mere lies to u ...that u ave believe this propoganda for truth..we tell ourselves time and time again, it would never ever happen to us...but now that we are living what we tell ourselves all our life wont happen to us.... wats gonna happen next then?????

juz came back from a nite out with the sisters.... tankful for this wonderful gift from God, at times its hard to relate a feelin wen u never had sumtin all ur life wich u want bt simply impossible and God blessed u with them:p
nevertheless, a nickle for my thots, desember? i feel like saying"i understand what ur goin tru" seems so underrated, i mean for one, hw can i understand wen i myself ave never gone tru it, here she is goin tru hell and back, for wot? throwing what she already ave for a future beyond any resonable doubt that it mite lead to more agonies and heartaches. wld it be fair if at the end of the day i simply say, would it kill to overlook a single imperfection over a hell of wave that will take on u if u choose to go over the other side, but then dat wldnt be fair bcz at the end of the day i simply can relate to this turmoil and torment shes been bearing over the years, she kept it mummed and silent bout this, swallowing all these bitterness into her.....i can relate to that, desember
does any of these ramblings make any sense even? i mean the choice is concise and obvious, a rite or left turn but apparently a mindless strait direction had erected from this turmoil of thots and at the end of the day u jz dun wan her to be a victim of a circumstance tat she chose to be in ... u dun want her to regret and u dun want her to discard wot she ave for sumone who may nt be real evem .... well God noes eh?