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Ya Allah Ya Khudaiyah
Ya Rahman Ya Rahim
I seek Thee for your guidance,
I have been so lost lately
I realised I am so weak, so apt to make mistakes,
Ya Khudaiyah, please dun leave me at moments wen i feel so alone,
I feel like i have forsaken all the goodness and rahmat You have given me
Instead of looking for You, i have look upon the other side
Ya Allah Ya Khudaiyah,
I beg You to grant me peace in my forlorn heart.
Please forgive all my past sins
Ya Allah Ya Khudaiyah
I beg You to forgive all the past sins of my husband
He too is weak and very apt to make mistakes.
Please make us better husband and wife
Please grant Luv and Respect in our heart
Please prolong our marriage all till we meet again in Your safe haven
On many days i feel like i ave failed my husband.
I am certain dat hes a good man that You have destined for me
and that hes not perfect obviously
i Cant understand why at times i choose to demand tings that are too trivial from him
the little tings he can do to make his wife happy and yet he chose to ignore
although he ave transform into another person i dun seem to recognise animore and tat my heart is starting to doubt all the luv he had for me,
i choose to tell myself that its onli paranoia tat is gettin to me
and tat he is still who he is and ive becum sumtin i wasnt
or perhaps i was nt??
I am confuse Ya Khudaiyah
I seek your guidance in my darkest hour.....
Please dun take away sumtin that you have blessed me with
Please take care of us Ya Rahman Ya Rahim
Please bring us together even how bleak and hard some days might be
Please make us a more loving couple that wont forsake each other on many days
Ya Allah Ya Khudaiyah
Please give me the assuarance in my failed heart tat indeed at the end of every tunnel there is a lite i will eventually find

Amin Ya Rabal Alamin

u can never comprehend how life just smack u in the face....those tat promise u a lifetime of happiness and luv ave obviously went back on their werd and suddenly the meaning and value of sorries is completely compromise....they presume that u will continously wait for them ...dun dey noe...dat u are just killing time and tat all u felt ave almost completely evaporated and pretty much never there before...so wheres the happy ending u seeked? wheres the pillow tat was gonna break ur fall wen u trip and tumble down with the notion of gravity ... he let u break instead....promises were just werds.... he wasnt real desember....hw was i fooled to tink he was otherwise.......i asked myself once desember, if i ever get my happy ending ....if hes gonna be my cushion........dat realli will break my fall wen i fall or will he jz let me break? my happy ending dun end wif me living off in a well to do home , armed wif wonderful silver.. avin a spouse dat earn loads and two children dat study like mad ahhaha dats nt my happi ending
all i ever wanted was a guy who bcums my constant cushion and my fren at the same time and yah he'll grow old wif me and go tru the thick and thin of life together hahah yah dats my happi ending aving to noe dat irrgardless of hw long and shitty and hell of a day i had it be nice dat at the end of the day i b goin back home to him? hes left me desember